I have good friends who grew up in the former East Germany, and who still live in Berlin today. We have often discussed their life experiences and they said "it wasn't so bad really, and anyway, we did not know what we were missing. You just followed the system, everyone knew the system, and most knew the ways around the system." I think I now have an actual understanding of what they meant. Most days, my personal experience is "not so bad". Some days are awful and some days are great. The big difference is that I know what I am missing. Won't bore you all with another recitation of that, but I am certainly missing a lot of things I will never get back and I know it.